The first time I realized how easy it was for someone to cut a child with words, it happened over dinner, in my brother’s house, under warm pendant lights that made everything look softer than it really was. The table was set the way Chelsea always set it—linen napkins folded into neat triangles, water glasses lined up like soldiers, a centerpiece that smelled faintly like rosemary and something expensive she couldn’t pronounce. Aaron had grilled steaks on the back patio, thick and red in the middle the way he liked them, and he’d served them like he was hosting a celebration instead of a family meal held together by obligation and habit.

Eli sat to my right, shoulders tucked in, hands in his lap the way I’d taught him when he was younger because he used to talk with his whole body—hands waving, legs bouncing, energy spilling over. At fourteen, he’d learned to pull it all back. Not because he wanted to, but because he’d learned that some rooms punished you for being too much.

He looked older than fourteen sometimes. Not in the tall, broad-shouldered way boys on the varsity team looked older, but in the careful way he listened, in the way he waited an extra beat before he answered a question, as if he was checking whether the answer would make someone else uncomfortable. He’d been top of his class for two years running, the kind of kid teachers wrote glowing notes about. Polite. Soft-spoken. Brilliant. The kind of kid people claimed to want… until wanting became the same thing as accepting.